At the last #Fellowship5 meeting, Yvette – the group mentor and spirit animal -challenged those of us mid journey with some searching questions about Fellowship attitude:
- Will you achieve add-in during 2018? When?
- Is it meaningful to me?
- Are you committed to it?
- Can i produce a plan?
This is my response… Yes x4.
But in longer form:
I shall complete and hand-in during 2018, in fact I am going to say early March 2018. It is important to me personally to go on this journey although not overly confident of a successful outcome I am committed to it.
I don’t see the fact that I may not be successful as a negative. It’s an acknowledgement that perhaps I’ve not done enough out of my bubble, but throughout the fellowship journey (c/o Jo Walley) I have reflected on this and it has given me the impetus to challenge this and the personal blockages to overcoming it.
It is important to me that I reflect on my professional and personal development of the last couple of years to shown how I have grown. I will be a more well rounded person for undertaking this and it challenges my default ‘looking forward’ approach.
I recognised in the last meeting that I am unable to commit the requisite time required to show the respect to the process and to myself in the current set-up. Work and family commitments do not allow for effective fellowshiping (also Persona 5 won’t play itself!). So between now and March I am committing 2 days annual leave per month to focus on fellowship – as well as our monthly group catch ups.
And finally the plan!
Significant Experience: The 7th meeting of the Fellowship Group
What Happened?: As normal, I’m not going to discuss the contents of the session or the action learning set (that’s not my story to tell) but we followed the similar structure:- catch-up/report back, actions, ALS, future actions, laughs and coffee.
So What?: I find these sessions so, so useful – not just from a professional problem solving and fellowship progression (or lack of in my case) but emotionally as well. It’s good to be able to be alongside -with no underlying or passive work/networking pressures – like minded colleagues and work though issues enable self-led problem solving, and learn from others experience of issues to help us solve our own problems. I discussed my lack of progression as part of a wider reflection on the whole process and have resolved to ask myself some questions (below) as part of my action plan for the next meet-up. We also discussed authenticity, why ‘should’ is a four letter word demanding too much of ourselves, fellowship ‘blockers,’ the importance of these meet-ups, and a bit of running chat of course!
Now What?: I have set, achievable goals for the next meeting:
- Ask myself:
- Am I going to achieve Fellowship (hand-in) in 2018
- If it is achievable, is it meaningful to me?
- Am I committed to it AKA can I be arsed?
- If yes to those – can I produce a (rough) plan for finishing?
- Keep catching up on reflections
- Read CV feedback, wipe away tears, and look at perhaps starting afresh with initial bullet points
- Speak about a coaching opportunity to work through an issue I face
- Look at ways to create time within working week as struggling to get time in the evening/weekends due to family pressures.
When & Where?: 21st November 2017, Manchester
Significant Experience: The 5th meeting of the Fellowship Group
What Happened?: Normally the whole thing discussion is private but considering I was the presenter in the Action Learning Set I’m allowed to say! The problem was my inability to pick up/continue an ongoing piece of work after I have stopped working on it. The main discussion points were around organisational issues (expected) and professional confidence (*very* unexpected)
So What?: This was really very useful as it brought forward issues about my professional confidence/trust in my abilities that I had not consciously considered before. It also led to my thinking more about the value I place on my time.
Now What?: I am going to produce some ‘golden rules‘ to how I approach non-1 sitting finish work and examine strategies to breaking down these non-small works into more finish-able chunks. By doing this it shall improve my belief in my own work, which shall improve my effectiveness for my organisation both in quality and my honest time spent on projects.
When & Where?: 10th August 2017, Manchester
Significant Experience: Creating my golden rules to increase productivity in
What Happened?: At the August #Fellowshipfive meeting – I had an Action Learning Set in which I discussed my inability to re-pick up work and how this affected me. These golden rules were my action/approach to solving this issue.
- Have a plan of what this work will entail – what stages will the work involve (think Project Management)
- Before starting create sensible stopping points (for example between stages)
- When stopping – produce bullet points explaining what you’ve already done and how you feel about what you have done.
- When picking up again – have you learned anything that alters what you have already done?
So What?: It was important to get this done as it is a time sink and a confidence drain. Also I should have done it last month!
Now What?: Now I am going to have these to hand and build them into my daily work approach. I have a large search to be done next week that will span several days (including a weekend) so it is a good test
When & Where?: 8th November 2017
Significant Experience: The 6th meet-up of the fellowship group. The meeting on 15th September was cancelled.
What Happened?: Although conversation will remain private, this session followed a different path as we were 2 members short (although their height is inconsequential) so led by SH, we had a round-table looking at our progress (me: non), reasons (me: many) and future actions (me: last times + catch up on reflections) – we then morphed into a ‘shut up & write session’. As ever it was a relaxed and welcoming session with plenty of LOL’s and pastries…
So What?: This was perhaps the most important meeting for me since the initial meeting as I had lost my way badly with all things fellowship, and I worry that if this meeting hadn’t happened I may have just gone full ‘fuck it’ mode. It is a good group where we can share and work through worries and issues that directly and in-directly effect our fellowship approach.
Now What?: I am re-energized in all things #fellowshipfive going to complete my actions from last time – including my ‘golden rules’ to stop me restarting work. To counter-act the lulls that seem to happen during the extended breaks we are going to try an informal ‘this week I did’/next week I shall’ approach on the whats-app group…breaking it down into small chunks 🙂
When & Where?: Joule, Manchester, 24th October 2017
Date: 24th July 2017
Significant Experience: It was the 4th meeting of the #fellowshipfive . The meeting on 23/5 was cancelled for obvious reasons
What Happened?: This was a different approach to ALS and of the meeting generally but that’s not my story to tell! Though it was interesting conversations for everyone – with a theme of disorganisation being prominent!
So What?: These are really interesting chats with similar issues facing different members of the group is heartening! It feels simailr to when I started my role after exclsuivley being a solo-librarian to have peers to bounce ideas of is great!
Now What?: I am going to try and find a dedicated workspace in the house and I am going to try and do ‘shut up and write sessions’ in the office once a week to increase professional development productivity.
When & Where?: 17th July 2017, Manchester.
Date: 112th April 2017
Significant Experience: I produced my second CILIP Professional Knowledge & Skills Base (PKSB) to support my professional development review (PDR) within my host organisation with my line manager
What Happened?:To support my first PDR/appraisal in 3 years, I thought it would be useful to re-do CILIP’s PKSB that I had first done in March 2016 prior to starting the Knowledge for Healthcare Leadership Programme. Unfortunately, the professional development ‘offer’ had been pre-decided on perceived need at a departmental level, so my effort was, for this intention, was wasted.
So What?: Despite the lack of interest in my stated professional aims, I found the process of updating the PKSB to be very useful when framing what I believe to be my professional needs in terms of development. It was also very useful to compare it to March 2016 PKSB in which I had over 80 development needs!
Now What?: Moving forward I shall use the PKSB to identify development opportunities that I believe will benefit me professionally and enable me to provide the best service for my users enabling better decision making within public health commissioning.
When & Where: 12th -18th March 2017,
March 2017 PKSB Full Report.